Chapter 8 : The Most Significant Day of my Life 1 May 3, 2008

THE SAME DAY @ EVENING:

Since, the tuition was gone, I was sitting lonely in my room trying to figure out what exactly I wanted to do. I was feeling quite sad and a bit happy too. Furthermore, I was confused also. I don’t know how such kinds of nasty feelings occur to me, but I can’t help.

• Sad because I was exiled from my tuition.

• Happy because for the whole week I’ll be gonna with Palak (for song rehearsals).

• Confused because life introduced one more girl in my ‘first love’ story.

Ohhh God…!!

And suddenly, I heard a voice:

“Yes dear”.

“Who’s it??” I horrified. I looked around and saw him.

“Hie, I am God, I just heard you calling me. So I thought to make a visit.” he said. His voice had a perfect combination of calmness and firmness. Suddenly, the atmosphere became soothing and pacified.

“Thankyou God. I really needed you. Can I ask you some questions??” I said.

He nodded.

“God, I have some problems with girls.”

“Same here. Can we change the topic???” God spoke and laughed, then gradually became serious and said, “I know dear. Thats why I am here. Ask your questions.”

I wondered if God also carries some sense of humour..! Anyways, it was not my problem. All I knew that I was mesmerized by his presence. I felt very relaxed.

“God, I am confused. I feel that I love Naina. But I feel the same for other girls too. What is it??” I asked.

“Are you sure you love Naina?” he questioned.

“Yes, I do. I always think of her. I see her in my dreams. I cry for her. She is on my mind.” I replied. It was the first time someone asked me about how I used to feel about Naina. And also, it was the first time I said to someone that I loved her.

“Ok, tell me….Why do you love her?” God asked again. It’d appeared I was giving some interview. I thought for a moment and then answered:

“I don’t know.”

“Hmmm….Let me explain this to you.” God took a deep breath and then said, “Dear, you are in your ‘first’ love. Congratulations. But your love is not for any person, but for certain characteristics.”

Certainly, whatever he said went above my head. And God knew this very well. He just smiled and waited for my reaction.

“Can you please exemplify it?” I asked.

“Sure. Tell me what you like in Naina?”

I thought for a moment and then said, “God, to be very honest, I love her hairs, I love her face with specs, I love when she talks and when she gets irritated when I tease her. I love when she wears capris and sleeveless. I just can’t explain how I feel when she bites her lips. God, you know she’s too sexy…..OOPss…!!!!”

God laughed.

“And what you like in Palak?” he asked again. He appeared very interested. I liked God.

“umm..well…God, she’s too sweet. I can’t tell you how cute she looks in school uniform, with her two folded ‘chotis’. I love when she speaks. There is an innoncence in her eyes. Her eyes become small and start shining when she laughs. I don’t know, but she’s different from other girls. Nevertheless, I like her God.”

I stopped for a while, and then said again:

“Dear God, I am very much confused, for whom should I go, and how should I decide it?”

God met his eyes with me. I felt like I am getting hypnotized.

“Time will decide it dear. Leave it all on me. I will make the things work for you.” God answered.

“Then what should I do now?” I asked again. Surely, I was not satisfied by the answer.

“Nothing except one. Take care of those whom you love, pray for them and expect nothing in return. Rest of the things I’ll handle. Trust me.” God answered. His voice was so assuring.

“God, one last question please?”

“Yeh sure.”

“I am in love, but I still do watch porn. Is it wrong?” I asked.

God stood up, folded his hands and then said:

“Dear, its not me who decides what is wrong and what is right. Its decided by the people, like you, on the earth. All I can do is to give you a suggestion, ‘Nothing is wrong if you are ready to accept responsibilties of its consequences.’”

He looked at me. He knew I understood what he said. Then he waved his hand and disappeared.

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“Beta, wake up, dinner is ready.” suddenly I heard voice of my mom. I realised I had slept on my study table. But, then what was that?? I talked to the God few moments ago. I remembered each and everything crystal clear.

Although, I didn’t get most of the things God said to me. But I understood perfectly well that he’s with me, – - everytime, everywhere. God made me understand the two most important rules of life:

1. Take care of your loved ones, pray for them, love them more and more and expect nothing in return.

2. Nothing is wrong if you are ready to accept the consequences.

I decided that I’ll always follow the same. One more important thing that I decided was to go for the dinner quickly, before mom gets on fire.

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THE NEXT DAY @ SCHOOL:

The first two periods went boring. There were still two more to go before lunch. The song rehearsals were scheduled in the second half, i.e after lunch.

Akshat and Apurv were absent today for they didn’t complete the practical records. And Sandeep was busy in completing his own. I looked around and noticed Isha doing something by bending completely on her desk. As her posture looked objectionable, I stood up to get a clear view, and found out that she was filling some ’slam book’.

While Palak, who was sitting towards my side on a parallel bench seemed idle and totally uninterested with the surroundings. I don’t know what happened to me, but for the first time ever in last 1 year, I called her name:

“Palak…!! Palak…!!”

She after realising someone had called her looked towards me: “Yes???”

{rest continued in Chapter 9}

PS–From this post onwards I’ll write PSs (better to say, try to write PS).

PS–Mom will kill me if she comes to know that I am blogging (esp. late at night).

PS–Summer sucks when your PC lies in the hottest part of your home.

PS–Saw ‘Tashan’ today. Everything except Kareena’s zero figure is rubbish.

PS–Song of the day ~ “Before the Dawn” by Evanescence.

PS–I am going to sleep. Good Night.